Writting is something that people either chose to do or find themselves having to do. Some people find writing to be a chore, while others find the joy in sitting back, taking the time to relax, flipping open a notebook, grabbing and pen, and writing! Some people write a lot, and some people barely write at all. Filling out their name on a piece of paper and answering a few questions could even be a stretch. With all of this in consideration, many people like you and me seem to find ourselves stuck exactly in the middle, not knowing which way we lean towards more.
Writing when not asked, not when the grade depends on it at least, is always much more enjoyable. The stress and preasure to write a flawless paper is no longer and we are now able to sit back, take a breather, and relax. Writing on my own time, at my own pace is something that I love to do; however, when it comes to something that is demanded of, I do not always enjoy it. I feel the preasure to whip out something marvelous..something that may not even sound like me. Don't get me wrong, I really do love writing, but it seems to me when I am trying to write something to maybe "impress" everyone..it ends up worse!
I write much differntly for different types of work. When I am writing to myself, I do not care what I say or how I sound, I simply just write. Whatever comes to mind and whatever I am thinking, I write it down. I wish when it came to writing formally, a paper for example, that I could do the same. I over think everything and find myself running in cricles, round and round. I type something, delete it, type it agian, and stare at the screen. It is an overwhelming process that I wish I did not have to go through. I wish I could sit back, relax and act like I am writing to myself. I constantly hit dead end after dead end, and right when I get going, I stop.
Taking the pressure off of me while writing might be something good for me to do, I need to stop caring soooo much about what I am saying and how I am saying it and just write. I think the more I write the better I will get at this. And until that day comes, I will continue to stare blankly at the screen wondering what word I should type next!!
Shell, it was fun to read this! I agreed with you on basically all of it; writing is a lot more enjoyable when it isn't mandatory and doesn't have a deadline! I like reading your pieces, they're fun. :)
ReplyDeleteI completely understand, Michelle! Writing for the sake of writing is effortless and fun, but writing a report for school is, for the lack of a better term, brutal. You are not alone though, I too find myself typing something, and then deleting it, and then trying again, but failing again. But don't worry, like you said, you can only get better with practice! (:
ReplyDeleteWhen asked to write, I totally feel the same way! Yeah, and I pretty much agreed with everything that you wrote too! Writing for a purpose always seems harder and it feels almost impossible to think of something good to write without taking up 30 minutes.
ReplyDeleteI agree with this completely. It is frustrating to try and write a paper about something you have no interest in, or that puts you on a deadline. The writing is for someone else and not for you and so you become detatched from it. When writing for yourself, you are able to say things so that you can understand them, about how you are feeling, what you are thinking, and if others don't understand it or like it, thats fine because it is not for them. The writing is for you.
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